Jade Time

Watched this show on Tv this morning and I saw this dude go to extreme lengths to prove himself and his point. He had something he believed in, something he was and was so sure bout that he didnt mind going to places where he knew he'd get rejected but still talk bout it openly. He didnt mind standing out and just being opened about it, even though it risked his safety or public status.

Now, what he believed is not something that i believe in....but its his attitude that made me think about what i believe in but can not say somethings.....i always used to think I was so sure bout myself, bout who I am and what i believe in, but i guess i'm not, cause what i believe in is what should really makes me ME and i cant even talk bout it, or be it or live it. it just makes me think. Who are we and what defines us. I i'm not talking bout the generic answers like - i'm fun bubbly and lively. I'm talking bout - my name is Dupe and i'm a Lesbian, or I'm Muslin or I'm a Christian.

I mean what you believe in should determine who you are, shouldn't it. What would be the point of believing in something if it's just going to stop there. Shouldn't we be living it, isn't it who we are? or is it just something you sorta click in your head and just push into a corner? Self conviction should rule your life shouldn't it? It should create confidence and courage cause you know its so right,but why doesn't it feel that way?