Tell Tale Signs
The tell tale signs were there,
It kept playing behind my eyelids, sometimes even when my eyes were open.
Deed done, that’s what my body tells me.
Flashback: the taste of my self on his fingers
Tried to wash it away but…. my pores remain closed, trapped with this one rendezvous
Inner thighs are bruised with the memory
Tell tale signs
Flashback: head hitting solidness, tongue in my mouth
My left arm is in agony but I can’t seem to remember what I or he did with it
Perhaps it was when I was on my back, or maybe my side, or on all fours.
Tell tale signs
Flashback: pushed hard, a sigh of relief then the wetness on me
The sickness the next morning was there,
Strong in my tummy, comprehension had evacuated.
The images keep flashing, the pace, too quick for me to keep up with
The laughter was unfamiliar and too frightening
Footsteps muddled but oddly synchronized.
Flashback: unknown eyes on us but still his hands under my dress, and mine at his belt.
Tell tale signs
Emptiness and missing something that was never there.
Intention had been known in advance of actual event.
Fingers now itch to be laced up with another.
Lips now remain slightly ajar, just waiting
Flashback; the feeling of want before thinking became blurred
Flashback: the held look, eyes glazed with something other than curiosity, desire?
Flashback: rough breaths in my ear on my neck, hand prints all over my body
Tell tale signs
Flash-forward: a re-run?
