Hope and Fear
I held my breath,
I held my breath, long and hard,
Till I felt my heart beat vibrate right through my fingers.
I was trying to suck in as much of you as I possibly could.
Cause you're not real.
Not to me.
They don't come this good,
Not even in dreams.
This happiness you transfer to this part,
To this part right here on my chest,
It's painfully pleasant.
It's sorrowful and sweet at the same time,
Murderous and reviving at the same time.
I feel like I have swallowed a bubble and now some how floating,
or bouncing.
I feel some what buoyant.
Tears stream down my face and I can't tell you what tears they are.
I guess it's either these tears or me exploding with this emotion.
I am bewildered and somehow still claim with an impeccable peace
It is like the promise of return from a hero or loved one
And yet,
It also feels like this,
Like the sadness and pain of being left behind.
I guess it is the battle between Hope and fear whenever Love presents itself.
